The Meeting Aesclepius practice was quite an experience for me. It allowed me to look at my relationship with my soul mate and visualize all the times we shared that has touched me. I saw him from the beginning and through many stages of our relationship that made me love and appreciate him for being the man that he is. Of course there were some rough spots that came through momentarily in this practice but I quickly removed the thoughts and focused on the goodness. The goodness allowed me to see that there is room for continued love and understanding however at the end I ran into a slight problem. It was that white light that would not fully emerge through some bit of a blurred vision. It was almost like the white light was trying to break through some orange and yellow colored fog and I felt as if I was lost. I was searching for him and he was searching for me but we couldn't find one another. It was such a strange feeling for a few minutes. I even went as far as listening to the exercise again trying to find answers to why that light was struggling to fully break through. I didn't go all the way through til the end listening the second time because at that point I needed to open my eyes and face my problem. I knew that we had just experienced a situation that he had not fully let go of so in the practice of the exercise my mind and inner body felt that the connection was lost.
The saying, "One can not lead another where one has not gone himself", I have mixed feeling about. I can lead you to a place you haven't been and you might be able to have a visual, but unless you have personally experienced it yourself, you will not have felt the actual pain or joy or what ever that feeling was.
Looking forward to responses.
Lori
It's interesting how things, especially problems, manifests itself. Sometimes, even the things we are hardly aware of can have a profound effect on us. I enjoyed reading your blog - it seemed like you were able to surrender yourself to the meditation...at least up until the issue with the white light. Do you think you might attempt this meditation again? Would you use your soul mate again, or might you consider using another as a focal point? Do you think that if your soul mate is able to gain closure with this issue and the two of you work that part out, you might be able to rid yourself of that hindrance and actually experience full release of that white beam of light? Sorry, I don't mean to ask so many questions, and I definitely don't want to come across as presumptuous; I just felt that your experience was interesting.
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Lori~
ReplyDeleteI must say I find your blog this week wonderful~ I am so happy that you were able to get in to this exercise and really look at and for waht you wanted. I am sorry to read about the blocks that you faced at the end but you made it a long way and that is wonderful.
I wonder like Nicole if you would try this exercise again with the goal of having more luck or if you would try somethign different next time.
Best Wishes~
S